It’s Sunday, a little over a week until my next trip to Bali and I’ve just gotten back from an epic Kundalini yoga class at my fave Yoga Ground here in Auckland. I plan to do a lot of yoga while I’m in Bali so have been easing back into it. In all honesty, I can count on one hand the number of classes I’ve taken since my last trip to Bali last August.. I tend to dip in and out of it. And right now my focus has been on F45 and walking my dogs.
You’ve no doubt heard of the Law of Attraction, made famous by the book and film The Secret by Rhonda Byrne which first launched in 2006. But what you mightn’t be familiar with is the Law of Vibration which serves as a foundation of Law of Attraction and is one of the most important Universal laws to contemplate. What this principle teaches us is that everything in the world is energy.
What is a new year without setting some goals? I’ve never been a big fan of resolutions, as they seem so loaded in expectation, and there’s a timeliness to them that doesn’t sit well with me. But I am a fan of setting intentions and goals for a new year. Some people set these at the start of a new year, and others set them on their birthday, so as it was my birthday earlier this month (Feb 3rd!), I’m choosing the latter. After all, every year we are essentially reborn :)
I recently shared with you that I’d met an incredible guy and we’d been dating for three weeks. In many ways it had been moving relatively quickly, but at the same time we went days at a time without seeing each other due to his travel schedule. I was over the moon that I’d found someone so on my level, with the same sense of humour, who thought I was the cutest thing he’d ever seen and regularly reminded me so. He was smart, ambitious, honest, attentive and incredibly generous. He met some of my friends and spoke about the future. We were in constant contact. And then three weeks in, on the eve of my birthday weekend (hi 35!!) he was gone. I’d been ghosted.
For Mental Health Awareness Week last week I was invited to speak at Huffer and FCB Media about managing stress and anxiety in the workplace. Speaking from experience, as someone who had to navigate the turbulent seas of dealing with a mental illness in the workplace (without wanting to tell anyone) and trying to stay afloat as executive assistant to the CEO of a busy media agency, here are the top tips I shared.
I caught up with a good friend recently who I hadn’t seen in a couple of years; she’s just moved home from London, however our friendship has been maintained by social media -- as most modern millennial friendships go. After exchanging pleasantries, settling into her beanbag and handing me my decaf coffee, she tilted her head and asked “so how are you finding being 34 and single with no kids?”
I finally did it. I quit my job. Two months ago.
I’ve delayed shouting it from the rooftops because I’ve been going through my internal process, and to be honest, for the past few weeks I haven’t really felt like being vocal. I find it really easy to write about the uncomfortable stuff, but when I’m really happy and things are going great I find it much harder. Call it tall poppy syndrome or reverse narcissism or whatever you like -- it's pretty weird.
In March last year I started my health coaching certification through the Institute of Integrative Nutrition so have spent the better part of a year immersed in health and wellness, which you all know I am completely passionate about but it can get a little overwhelming, trying to keep up with the latest and greatest.
On August 18th I declared I wasn't going to be drinking til the end of the year. It wasn't that my drinking was in any way out of hand - in fact it was aggressively the opposite - but I knew that drinking didn't fit into the overall vision I had for myself and what I wanted to achieve in the last months of 2017.
A couple of weeks ago I shared on Instagram that the wheels had well and truly fallen off. I was feeling anxious, depleted, lacking motivation and all kinds of emotional. If you didn’t catch it or you've always wondered what I look like when I cry, here it is.
I’ve spent the past couple of weeks quietly trying to make sense of what this lingering feeling means. Because, that’s what we do in the personal development space; we can’t just let feelings exist without rigorous curiosity. And the more I talk to women around me I’m discovering I’m not alone. I can reflect on it now because I feel like I'm coming out the other side.
A week ago it was the mid-winter party for the media agency I work for. It's an event I put together each year, and is a great chance to celebrate the achievements of the half-year, and toast to the year ahead - over free-flowing alcohol and white, deep fried food. Not exactly the diet of an aspiring holistic health coach, but alas, balance and all that.
THIS PAST WEEKEND I SPENT AT FESTIVAL FOR THE FUTURE (festivalforthefuture.org.nz), an incredible weekend event here in Auckland full of inspirational speakers, panels and workshops that help build ideas and skills to support the future, and inspire change across areas such as sustainability, race relations, technology, and innovation. Inspiring shit.
To some extent or another, unless you've reached enlightenment you are no doubt getting in your own way in some area - or multiple areas - of your life. That might look like: not stepping into your purpose, not achieving your health and fitness goals, not attracting a loving partner, not cultivating new friendships and not elevating your career. This happens because we are stuck in our heads and not leading with our hearts, or, as in a lot of cases, if we're trying to live another persons version of our ideal life.
Yesterday I went to a yoga class at the newly opened Rise HYP studio with my girlfriend Carly and I cried at the end of class. It was the cutest and weirdest thing because I'm not really a crier and I wasn't even premenstrual, but it happened and it was lovely, and all just part of this whole softening into the feminine malarkey that I'm navigating. It wasn't a full ugly cry like you might see from Carrie on Homeland, but there were real tears.
I recently got back from LA where I completed The Bridge Experience workshop with Alexi Panos and Preston Smiles. One weekend, two mentors, eight coaches and 53 epic souls; I can hand on heart say it changed my life. This year I really started leaning into my intuition, so it was my intuition, impulse, and need to be pushed outside of my comfort zone that led me there.